I made a scholarship presentation last evening. There were 17 students presenting for this Comprehensive Scholarship, and I was lucky to be one of them.
However, I hardly thought I could get this opportunity when I clicked the applying button casually serveral days ago. When the counselor told me that I've made it to the presentation stage, I was really surprised.
But after I saw the student list , I realized that I was probably just "lucky" to get this opportunity. It seemed that many top students didn't even submit the application, while I happened to apply (just for fun), so I was involved.
In fact, though my grade was not bad, it's far from excellent. Maybe they chose me because I was versatile. I comforted myself. Such being the case, I started to prepare for the presentation.
I was the third student to make the presentation. After I finished it, I began to listen to other students' presentation. Then I was stunned.
Most of them did not only excel at academics, but also perform well in many other aspects like art, sports and social work. They had an ample amount of experience. I felt ashamed. Then I thought of one of my friend's words—"the gap between people enlarges hugely during college years". I was lost in thought.
I recalled my freshman year. Not so satisfying. No excellent grade, few social activities, poor time management... I was even kind of shiftless.
To my surprise, I want to write something in the stressful final weeks. But I don't want to post it on my Qzone or Moment, where there're too many acquaintances, and I also choose to write in English because I don't want to let too many take notice of it. I need a quiet place.
So here I am, at my blog. It has been nearly 5 years since I set up this website. I have to admit that sometimes I'm perplexed about the reason and the purpose of maintaining it. I'm not sure what my blog should be like. (Sharing programming experience? No, I'm just an amateur and am incapable of that. Sharing my daily life? No, I'm not so interested in it and I need to protect my privacy...) Few people come to see this website, and few are interested in what I did or what I wrote. It doesn't really matter, from another perspective, it makes my website a peaceful harbour for me, a secret zone.
Maybe I'll start writing posts about my thinkings and feelings later on. It doesn't matter if I don't have any reader. But I'll be very happy if someone has empathy with my posts.
A high school history teacher once told us, "If you make one close friend in school,you will be most fortunate. A true friend is someone who stays with you for life ." Experience teaches that he was right Good friendship is just not easily formed.
It is possible that we simply do not stay in one place long enough for true friendship to develop. However, there can be no disagreement on the need for each of us to think carefully about the kind of friendship we want.
To most of us, friendships are considered very important, but we need to have clear in our minds the kinds of friendship we want Are they to be close or kept at arm’s length? Do we want share ourselves or do we want to walk on the surface? For some people, many friendships on the surface are. Quite enough-and that's all right. But at some point we need to make sure that our expectations. the same as our friends' expectations. The sharing of personal experience in cluding our tears as well as our dark dreams is the surest way to deepen friendships. But it must be undertaken slowly and carried on only if there are signs of interest and action in return.
What are some of the difficulties ship? The greatest is the attraction to expect too much too soon Deep relationships take time. Another "major difficulty" is the selfishness to think one "possesses" the other, including his time and attention. Similarly, friendships require actions in return. In other words, you must give as much as you take. Finally there is a question of taking care of. Unless you spend reasonable time together, talking on the phone, writing letters, doing things together, friendships will die away.